Sunday, April 24, 2016

I refuse to let one insensitive and rude remark ruin my day, and so here goes:

1. JJ Lin performed at Star Awards (AHHH!!! rare fangirl moment hehe, but I've missed watching his performances. He's just SO.GOOD. singing live!)
2. I was arguably productive today
3. I learnt to place my problem before God first instead of relying on my very limited knowledge to try to fix it.
4. Despite everything, I had good moments with my family today (and I ate ma la guo with my dad - even though it really wasn't spicy at all D: I guess it's time to seek out better ma la guo!)
5. Exam week is coming! Which also means it'll end soon! And I really can't wait because there are so many other things that I want to do during the vacation. (yes, plan. I will start planning.) I initially thought that I had loads of time but looking at my schedule which is filled with camps and the study trip, it seems like a packed vacation after all. Either way, I'm thankful for it :)

With this, good night :)

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Thoughts run wild.

Emotions - such a constraint at times.

I once tweeted this "One day you'll realize that you're not as strong as you've always believed, or wished, yourself to be. And that scares you." (why exactly I said that back in 2013, I can't remember though) and somehow, it rings so true today / right now.

I feel that my procrastination has seeped into other aspects of life (apart from academic) and it's honestly not wise. It reminds me of the Ted video I watched a while back - what will you do with life goals that don't have deadlines? Will you procrastinate indefinitely?

I think it's time to stop being an escapist and start being assertive. While I can say that the environment shapes who I am today (and I do truly believe in this), I guess ultimately, if I still have this voice in me, I am strong enough to change.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7

Yes, pray; seek and you shall receive.

Sunday, April 3, 2016


Had a quick read at my dear friend's blog yesterday (hi pig, yes you!) and am feeling quite happy :) Press on my dear, you are indeed very very precious.
Haven't been in the best of moods recently and sometimes it scares me because I feel like I'm becoming the exact person whom I've always said that I wouldn't be. Perhaps it's the stress / finals / lack of sleep / PMS / all of the above, but I've always believed that these shouldn't be excuses for one to be less than nice towards others.

I can't wait for the holidays. I truly need some time reading / cafe-hopping / people watching / hiding in the library / drawing / writing / jogging / rolling in bed (ok I do this a lot even during school term tbh) / playing piano (/ travelling?)
Anyway, thought I would share snippets of my family because I don't often talk about my parents and living in Cinnamon has made me appreciate time with them more (even though I find that with the luxury of having two "home"s, I tend to escape to either one when I face problems).

My mum. So yesterday, she asked "do you have a bit of time..?" sheepishly and I knew something was up. She wanted to me help her dye her hair (again). I would reluctant say yes every time, because professional hair services are really affordable nowadays. But you don't actually have much of a choice when she requests. Anyway, my point is: I was thinking, if my mum doesn't 认老 soon, I'll have to dye her hair even more frequently (and reluctantly haha) in the future. Then it struck me that she's getting old. I guess a reason why I don't recognize this fact as much as I should is exactly because she's always trying to look young and her petite built doesn't help either (I suppose humans are often very visual and forgetful). So, I am learning to better love her and treasure moments with her, whether good or bad.

My dad. My friends generally know that I'm closer to my dad. Through all these years, I literally might have died if he weren't around. Yesterday, he offered to fetch me to and fro Chew's birthday party (I really, really did tell him that I could go there by myself!!! But he probably thought that I'm too much of a klutz to do so x.x) Even when he dropped me off back home, I knew that it was another few hours of work before he would knock off. (Can't quite find words to express myself now) Basically, he has been my hero for the longest time ever and I can't imagine anyone else who will treat my as though I'm really a princess and I can't wait for the day when he doesn't have to work so hard anymore and I'm just very blessed.
A very rare and wordy post from me, and rather unedited too~ Back to essay now!