Tuesday, July 4, 2017

growth / grace

"grow the f up"
As hurtful as it sounds, it got me thinking.
Growing up.
What does that entail? So that "we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves"
What's stopping me? I think everyone has different weaknesses and difficulties, which also means finding different means to remove any obstacle stopping you.
What is the solution? I can't say for sure for everyone but I know that I am taking steps to solving it. Mini steps, one at a time; crawling, climbing; surely I'll make it there.

Not really sure if this blog is serving the purpose that I started off for it to, so I shall leave it till I find a reason to continue. Till then, keep growing - in love, in truth, in wisdom and all that's good.

Lastly, sharing a song that really speaks to me right now :)
站在大海边 才发现自己是多渺小
登上最高山 才发现天有多高
浩瀚的宇宙中 我真的微不足道
像灰尘 消失也没人知道
夜空的星星 仿佛在对着我微微笑
轻声告诉我 一切他都看见了
我所有挣扎 所有软弱和跌倒

Friday, June 30, 2017


What exactly am I fighting for? Days like this I feel like calling it quits.
Pyrrhic victory: a victory that is not worth winning because so much is lost to achieve it
For what it's worth, I think I'd rather end the war.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Vacation (blues?)

Haven't been feeling great despite it being the long vacation. I have been way too lazy and caught up in thoughts. I think I need to write, hang out with friends, go for a swim or jog, read some books and sip tea. TBH, I can't wait for work to start~

Also, I'm so in love with this song now <3 <3 the lyrics, the tune, the emotions (+ it's Coldplay)!! Ah!! I shall learn it on the piano!

oh they say people come, say people go
this particular diamond was extra special
and though you might be gone, and the world may not know
still I see you, celestial

like a lion you ran,  a goddess you rolled
like an eagle you circled, in perfect purple
so how come things move on, how come cars don’t slow
when it feels like the end of my world
when I should but I can’t let you go?

but when I’m cold, cold
oh when I’m cold, cold
there’s a light that you give me when I’m in shadow
there’s a feeling you give me, an everglow

I really can't wait for Europe. I've probably been the most diligent in checking out accommodations / transport options these days haha. I was wondering, this is such a super rare opportunity, what can I get from it? What do I want to get from it? And how can I serve God better from this trip? While I don't think that all forms of travelling are "life-changing" but I believe that if you really live the moments, you gain new lens to view the things around you. 

Thursday, March 2, 2017


Whew I haven't touched this blog in a while and... it feels a little foreign.

My emotions have been in a flux these days and my tears are literally 像关不紧的水龙头 ._. I felt like crying over upsetting stuff, happy stuff, memories, etc.
I was almost in tears thinking about CCS (because more schools signed up! And because I was touched at how Fio was putting in so much heart into it) and also when trying to Google Map the school I went to in China (miss, miss, miss this place so much. How can a place be of such importance to me when I've only been there for 2 weeks. I think my class has since graduated from the school and moved on to the city - hopefully)

Right now I'm more at peace. Can't wait for what the second half of this semester, the vacation and the next semester holds for me. Thankful as always.

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

new year new sem new me...?

Accidentally locked this blog up for way longer than I had wanted to.
Will do a proper post when I have time (and settle my laptop issue)

Cheers to a new semester! Already feeling the heat whewww