Tuesday, April 28, 2015




I know I promised a lighter post, but days have been tough.

Thursday, April 23, 2015


Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres... And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7, 13

It's high time to reflect: have I been patient and kind? Have I been selfless and forgiving? Have I always protected, always trusted, always hoped, and always persevered?
These verses are all so familiar, yet so hard to live by.

Good night world.

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Le Sens De La Vie

If you never figure out le sens de la vie, can you still lead a meaningful life?
I've always wanted to be different, to be myself. Yet somehow I end up being just like anyone else, going through the same system that I've so often criticised.

I speak and write about how everyone should pursue their own dreams - music, arts, literature, photography, anything. But, just as what I learnt this Sunday, when you truly believe in something, you act like you believe it. If you truly believe that a stuntman can carry you across a tightrope safely, you wouldn't mind volunteering for the act. Similarly, if you truly believe that everyone should follow their dreams wholeheartedly, you yourself should do so too.

But I don't.

I dream of building a school in rural areas. I want to teach kids to find purpose in life. I aspire to open a cafe and a social enterprise, to bake for a good cause. I hope to go on frequent mission trips. Yet, the closer I inch towards my career path, the further I seem to walk away from my dreams. It's a mix of worry and helplessness, a mix of personal insecurity and external pressure.

Même dans le ciel qui se voile
Il y a toujours une étoile
Qui scintille et nous guide sur le chemin de nos rêves

On a sidenote, incredibly excited for The Script!!
And I promise my next post won't be this heavy.

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

First (3 days) at work

10 things I learnt

1. What a catheter is.
2. Autonomy is not an option but a must.
3. Having a sense of purpose and fulfillment is important to me.
4. The healthcare industry is evidently not my cup of tea.
5. I miss teaching and my classes. On hindsight, it was really a great opportunity.
6. Doing nothing can be exhausting, really.
7. I don't think I have the discipline to survive a 9 to 5 (or 8 to 6 in my case) job.
8. I value meaningful interaction.
9. It is not hard to figure out whether you like a job (or not). And I had better do something I like in university, and after university.
10. And basically, I don't like this job.